Food Fight

This weekend has been one of the most eye opening experiences yet.  With a work off-site meeting and my sister being in town, there has been a constant barrage of food messages coming at me.  Pizza on Thursday night, lunch out with my co-workers on Friday, family dinner on Friday and lunch with my grandma on Saturday.  Whew!!!  Boy am I tired of saying no.

The best part is now I also realize how empowering it is to finally feel like when I am saying no, it is going to get me somewhere.  That is the key difference.  Whenever I have been on a diet before, somewhere in the recesses of my mind, I know that it will never work.  Sure, I hope that it will.  I hope that I will do better than last time.  I hope that this time, things will be different.  However, from deep within in the places we don't like to talk about at parties, I couldn't convince myself that I was actually going to be able to achieve it.

I still haven't figured out the "Why" behind all of that.  There are so many potential reasons that I held myself back.  In the interest of time, I have listed the ones that I can think of right now and as I build a better me, perhaps the list will grow and I will be able to figure out which one, or which combination "kept the woman down"....  well, up if we're talking weight.  ;)

• Fear of success
• Fear of failure
• Fear of the unknown
• Fear of attention
• Personal identity crisis
• Short term thinking
• All or nothing attitude
• Outlandish goals / timelines
• Under-developed coping mechanisms
• Lack of a solid rewards plan (other than food)

Thanks for reading and for your support!